what’s up with me?

I just completely blew off the last two days of work. And I’m not really sure why. I’m not pulling my hair out at how much I hate the job, and it’s not like I’m bored to tears either. I just… didn’t go in. And I didn’t call in. I “hid” in the real world. I didn’t get on the corporate network, so no one could IM me. I checked my email a few times on my iPhone, but nothing urgent came up. And I didn’t fill the time with all the other important stuff I could be doing either. I napped a lot. But I worked out too. I watched some TV, but not a lot. I read. I bought household supplies, with coupons! I also bought some sewing necessities, since I’m learning to sew. I did laundry, and got the mail. I picked up prescriptions. I didn’t even spend a lot of time on facebook. I *did* spend a lot of time finding great new people to follow on twitter, though.

I guess I just needed some space. Time to not rush. I walked at a normal pace. I enjoyed what a nice day it was. I’m recovered from this bought of illness, but I guess I still wasn’t at 100%. Sometimes I wonder if I’ll ever be 100%…

Anyways, I enjoyed the time, and actually got a decent amount of stuff done. Nothing work-related, but stuff that needed to get done. Now I have a weekend to myself. JR is off on a ski-trip to Tahoe, so it’s just me and my shadow. And Winston & Mercury. We’ll be cooking at home, and sewing, and reading, and watching movies, maybe drinking a bit of wine.

I’m seeing unexpected possibilities open up around me, and I’m just trying to be open to those opportunities. I have interests that aren’t confined to experience design, and I’m trying to give them room to grow. Maybe that’s what’s up with me.

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